Leaving Capgemini

Wednesday, february 28th

leaving capgemini. my first job. on february 28th my resignation shakes the organization. i am surprised what happens when you decide to leave. organizations seem to be incapable of reacting early enough even if they know. my boss talks to me. tries to understand why i want to leave. i did not resign for a strategic reason but realize that this is the best opportunity to negotiate salary, promotion - queer! i explain again my reasons for dissapointment. don't know if he understands. i tell him i don't believe things will change in the future. we discuss about structure, loyality, promises broken - i truly respect the wish to keep me in the organization. but i feel that its too late. it is strange to understand that resigning seems to be a call for action for an organization. it is hard to understand for my boss that i decide to leave without a "clear option" - as he puts it. my option is clear to me. i want to widen up my narrowed horizon, want to see the light again at the end of the tunnel. and i cannot change my life while staying in a consulting organization. true i dont know nothin about my future, where i will go, what i will do. Sure as nothing i need to stop first what it is not...

the next 3 months until the end of May proof to me that i took the right decision... i want to see the world i live in...my horizon widens again...opportunities and possibilities start taking over...everything seems possible...this feels good :)

in the end i know today that people follow primarily their own beliefs and interests. i dont think i will ever go back to my old organization. i learned a lot (which i realize today) - but you need to go on to be able to use your knowledge...so lets go on :)